My New Therapy :)

I've talked before about how expensive therapy is, and how I stopped going because I can't afford it.  The other downside to it is that every time I go my therapist makes me talk about my rape and I don't necessarily always want to talk about it.  I mean sometimes I do, and I'll blog about it.  But when I've had a really good day, the last thing I want to do is sit in a room for an hour and talk about the worst day of my life. She does this thing too where I have to close my eyes and picture I'm back in that apartment that night with him and I have to tell her what's happening and how I feel about it.  It's just draining. So I stopped going and now I decided I still need something therapeutic.....so I got a pet bunny!

Yesterday I went Christmas shopping with Lauren and we went in the pet store and I wanted a puppy and she tried to convince me to get one, but I knew a dog wasn't a good idea since I live in a little shoebox apartment. So we went over to look at the rabbits and I started squeeling about how I wanted one. Lauren (Ms. Enabler) started listing off every reason why I should get one....and so I bought this little caramel colored one with a white spot on his head. His name is Mufasa :)

I was having a not so great day today and was just feeling kind of down for no particular reason. When I got home from my part time job, I sat by Mufasa's cage and watched him play. I took a nap and when I woke up he was jumping around chasing a fly.  I was talking to a friend about having an off day and I started crying and Mufasa jumped over in my lap, climbed up my shirt, sat on my shoulder and fell asleep.  He made me feel so much better.

I think having something to take care of will make things a little easier sometimes.  I think having a little ball of fuzz to cuddle with whenever I want will make it better too :)