Things I Would Tell Past Me

I was thinking the other day and came up with things I would tell Past Kayleigh right after she was raped if I could go back in time.

1. Don't let him intimidate you. This is not your fault,it's his. He chose to do this and you need to stand up for yourself.

2. Go to the police. Right now. Do not
stop and think, just do it.

3. You are not going to get in trouble for drinking underage....that should not stop you from going to the cops for being attacked. He'll get in more trouble since he supplied you with alcohol.

4. Your 21st birthday is in 17 days. You do deserve a birthday and you deserve to celebrate cause you survived.

5. Don't be afraid to cry. Bottling it all up makes you feel worse.

6. You will reach out for help after too long and you will feel weak. You are not weak, you're strong.

7. Don't be afraid to ask your friends for a shoulder to cry on. Whitney has the most comfy shoulder and will let you snuggle with it when you have a bad day.

8. Your so called friends will treat you like garbage. Stand strong and don't make excuses for those cowards.

9. You will be vulnerable and people will take advantage. You have GOT to
stand up for what you want.

10. You will get to a point where you will want to slap the next person to tell you that being attacked was Gods plan for you. Refrain from violence, they don't mean anything bad by it.

11. You will struggle with religion and whether or not you believe in God anymore. You'll question how He could allow you to go through such a horrible situation. Push through. You will realize you do believe and you'll start praying again. You'll still want to know what you're supposed to even do with what you've been given, but you'll figure it out.

12. People will open up to you and you won't know how to respond. Be honest and speak from your heart.

13. Your family is the most important thing you can have. Not just blood family....you'll create a family in NC and they will be your biggest supports. Reach out to them when you need to....they love you more than you allow yourself to believe.

14. Journal. Write every single thing down. As much as you think you want to forget, you'll also kind of want to remember once in a while.

15. Enjoy your life. It's well deserved and living is always something you've loved and excelled at.

16. Remember the kind of person you are and want to be and do everything you can not to stray from that.