I Just Want To Sleep

Ugh. This weekend, though productive and fun at times, was really rough.  I got a lot of stuff done and was able to spend time with friends, but when it came time to sleep every night it was awful.  Apparently my nightmares are making quite a forceful comeback and I am SO not ok with that.  Friday and Saturday nights I was thrashing around I guess....I'm guessing because my only indication was I woke up with everything on the floor and me hanging halfway off of my bed.  I also woke up in the middle of the night both nights screaming. 

I can remember bits and pieces of the things I was dreaming about, and they were scary and disturbing and things I wish I didn't have to deal with in my sleep.  I don't know why they're coming back out of the blue, maybe it's the time of year or something, but I want them to stop.  This is around the time last year that they started because this was around the time I started actually dealing with everything.  Maybe there's something in the air that's bringing it all back for me, maybe it's stress (I haven't really felt that stressed though)...who knows. 

I've had about enough though.  I remember being still asleep-ish and hearing screaming and thinking "I wish my neighbors would be quiet" only to wake up a few minutes later to realize it was me making all of that noise. So uncomfortable. And then of course I couldn't fall back asleep.  I was fortunate enough this afternoon to sneak in an hour long nap, but it just wasn't enough.  I'm getting ready to head to bed soon...it stinks because I have to get up so early in the morning. I would not wish this on anyone, seriously I hope none of you ever have to go through any of this. 

I'm not even sure these can be categorized as nightmares.  Sounds more like night terrors, but I could be wrong.  Sounds like something I am going to need to research.  At least these seem to be my only problem at this point! Everything else is under control, even the anxiety.  Or maybe this is part of the anxiety problem. Either way, most things are fine.  Oy.

Here's to hoping I actually get a good night's sleep tonight!